i am beautiful ... no matter what they say

weeeeeeeeeeee!!!!! naknampating! na miss ko tong lalaking-batedor na to. sobra! papano ko ba makakalimutan ang mokong to eh minsan na neto pinaramdam sa akin na isa akong dyosa NOON! dyosang pugot ang ulo nga lang! nyahaha!

naintriga yata sa akin to nung minsan nag-angas ako at sinabi kong i am a woman that can wreck havoc in everyone's libido...that i possess a charming beauty that makes testosterone and estrogen dance like a lighted watusi. hahaha! nadala yata sa eklat ko noon!

sa pagka-describe (read: sipsip) nya sa akin dito sa sulat nato...sus! tsura lang ng mga sought-after sex symbols sa pelikula. dyosa-dyosahan agad ang feeling ko nung nabasa ko email nya way back year 2005 pa. uu, tagal na at may lumot na nga nung binuksan ko eh.

Si Azrael tinutukoy ko...ka-tropa ko dati sa yahoo user room na SGL (Showgirl's Lounge) .

kakagulat kasi nagkaroon yata kami ng... ano nga ba tawag dun,... ahhhh mental telepathy ... mental telepathy ba tawag dun? yung apparent communication from one mind to another? o baka coincidence lang din. kasi the other day lang habang depress-depressan ang lola nyo with matching pa-cry cry ay naisipan ko pagdiskitan na maglinis ng bumubulwak na subscribed emails sa inbox ko (na puro porn clips lang naman ang laman from adult yahoogroups) eh nabasa ko ulit yung email ni ka-tropang Azrael sa akin. tapos ngayon, anak ng pekpek! eto, from out of nowhere eh biglang nagparamdam sa tagboard ko ang burat na to. hmmn... teka, post ko na nga lang ang tinutukoy kong letter para mabasa nyo.

huyyy Az, welkam back to blogosphere nga pala. sana di ka na ulit sumpungin ng katamaran.

From: "sgl_azrael"
Date: Sun Feb 20, 2005 3:26 am
Subject: ABOUT A GIRL.....

there's this girl i recently had the chance to have a nice conversation with. she's kinda popular. all the horny toads know her, she's a regular at the SGL room, and her recorded cam clips are played in everyone's pc media player before goin' to sleep, after hitting the shower, and in between acts that involve a man's hand reaching for his jewels for god knows why.

it took me quite a while to find the guts to actually send her a private message. im not the PM type of person, but my gut feeling told me that this is the chance i have been waiting for. opportunity knocked, and i grabbed it. lol. it wasn't intended to be a long conve really.. i only wanted to ask a couple of questions cos i found out, that this girl is actually living near my place! i wanted to ask questions like, "saan ang bahay mo", "ano tunay mo pangalan", "sino kilala mo sa subdivision", "ilan aso nyo", "san ka bumibili ng pandesal", "pwede ko ba sungkitin panty mo sa sampayan nyo", "ano oras ka dumadaan sa phase 3 para maabangan kita", etc... (sa awa ng dios ni isa sa mga tanong ko di sinagot amp!) lol.

i can't recall what i might have said that time, all i can remember was it was by far, the most challenging first time pm in my entire chat life. i am a very funny person, always fools around in the room and makes fun of people i know in a nice kind of way..BUT! her replies to all my messages had me bowing down my head in disgrace.. i thought i was funny, but her humor made me think otherwise (panis ako taena...nagmukha akong corny lol.) that short exchange of massages about 20-30 mins long, had me gasping for air in awe. disbelief and amusement. man i was impressed!.She's not only smart...she is very intelligent! and way too clever for my pick-up lines (not that i wanted to hit on her, its the other way around) lol.

she has everything a typical wanker would want in his imagination, while in the act of self-gratification. a yummy body, flawless skin, nice set of rack, flirtatious tongue, inviting lips, pretty eyes (isa ako sa mga pinalad na makita face at mata nya lol!) and a fearless attitude. but then again, there are a few women who are also like that.

you see, this intrepid girl is a RARITY (endangered specie na yan, jurassic baga lol). she is one of a kind. the only one i know of that combines allure, beauty, intelligence and sexual charm and prowess. who wouldn't be honered to have this girl as a friend. i would be...

the only question is ... HOW?..

hours passed..a day passed... thoughts lingered thru my head... was i a complete failure that time? or was i able to make a nice impression on this girl?.... i said to myself.. well..fuck it! wether i made good or not, i dont care... i wouldn't care... and hell... i shouldn't care...for this is just a chatroom, the internet, the virtual world.. no one would seriously take what i had to say.. it was just an invite for friendship in it's truest form. kung ayaw eh di wag nyahahhaha..

and then... (DRUM ROLLS)..............................
DYARAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!!!

she posted on the SGL site..this site..:D

after reading what had to say.. it made me smile...bigla ako na shy.. i swear to god, namula ako nun! lol it was a very genuine letter she posted, it humbled me and made me realize that.. hey.. internet or not.. people make friends here..

so, to MARUJA.. let me tell you this.. I AM HONORED TO BE YOUR FRIEND. virtual or in the real world, you have made a nice and lasting impression on me. and i hope, in ur eyes, i did too. CHEERS TO U TIKTIK! you are one of a kind! and in behalf of the whole gang at SGL. we bow down our heads, and thank you for your presence and support. YOU ROCK! and SGL ROCKS WITH YOU!

to all guys..may this be an example, a challenge, an inspiration..we should learn to see a teaser, not only thru our eyes and sex organs.. BUT ALSO THRU OUR HEARTS and MINDS..

PEACE EVERYONE..

AZRAEL

o di ba, ang haba-haba ng hair ko? parang gusto ko tuloy kumanta nung You're Beautiful song ni James Blunt: "You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place, and I don't know what to do..." (with kilig factor).